Half past four in the morning. Can't sleep. My fault - bought a puzzle book and raced through it. I've been cutting back on puzzle books and thought I'd got it down to ones I don't race through. That one won't be bought again in a hurry. In practical terms, I'm down to simple sudoku and arrowwords now.
Meanwhile, I'm still horribly depressed. I had food for thought recently, though. I phoned the Samaritans and after a few minutes, the Sam asked "What do you expect us to do about it?"
I felt frustrated, but thought after "What do I expect to get out of talking to the Sams?" Sometimes it helps me to get my thoughts in order, but often not. Ok, different approach.
Meanwhile I want to rearrange my house a bit. If I'm not doing paperwork, I need a new 'office space' or 'work space'. This desk and computer have become 'leisure space'. Rearranging my space can often help me to get things done.
Meanwhile, I need professional help and there has to be a way to find it. I'd given up but now I'm going to try again.
And tonight? I'm going to stay up the rest of tonight to try to reset my internal clock. I haven't done it this way for a while, but sometimes it works.
