Chocolate deficiency crisis!

[lankou]

Are you trying to kill off my chocolate addiction, mon ankou?

Since last March, after my wife and I were given some  counselling by a specialist nurse. Basically and bluntly I was given Hobsons's Choice, "volunteer" for a particular treatment or die.
I volunteered, I haven't died, (yet) however I have apparently got remarkable results. After my recent "fill this." "What from here?" and an armful of blood tests. The nurse rang me up with the latest results. (I have lost 19 kilos of weight since last March and my blood sugar reading has dropped from 84 to 37.)
However with the once a week self inflicted injection, if I tried anything in that picture I would be sat on the bog holding a bucket.

[Sunny Clouds]

Congratulations on the weight loss (if it's what you were wanting - I hope I haven't misunderstood whether that's excess weight).

I still think that the visuals of it, whether tempting or off-putting are something I'm going to try to use.

[lankou]

Congratulations on the weight loss (if it's what you were wanting - I hope I haven't misunderstood whether that's excess weight).

I still think that the visuals of it, whether tempting or off-putting are something I'm going to try to use.

It was excess weight due to prescription steroids for asthma 55 years ago.

[Sunny Clouds]

 

Meanwhile, I just walked to the pharmacy and back, stopping off for some groceries.  I kept looking at biscuit and cookie packets.  Nope, too much sugar, too many ingredients (= highly processed) but succumbed to one of those paper bags of cookies they sell with the 'freshly baked' (i.e. warmed-up) bread.  It doesn't shout the number of calories.

Then I got home, had a couple, ate something a bit healthier, but oh, dear, ate the rest.

At least I can be honest with myself and say that flavour was a factor, but I don't think it's specifically sugar. 

As I type this, I'm remembering that I've been known to attack bananas, raspberries, oranges etc. this way.  Maybe it's sugar but I'm not conceptualising it that way.

I know myself well enough to know that discipline won't fix it for me.  It has to be diversion onto other things and also mapping 'packet of cookies' onto 'yuck, how long have those been in the system and just what on earth have they got in them?'

At least I didn't eat them until I got home.

Sudden thought - Fiz's suggestion of a particular chocolate makes me think mentally of the displays of chocolate and sweets in shops with individual bars.  I wonder what comes in small, individual bars that would make me feel pampered with just a little?

[ditchdwellers]

I went through a phase of buying of buying packs of small, individually wrapped chocolate bars from Lidl. I really like Lidl chocolate. The small bars were just enough to feel like I had a treat and satisfy a craving.
Likewise, they do lovely small chocolate coated ice creams on a stick. Perfect for finishing off a meal if I fancy something sweet.


To be perfectly honest, I seem to be lacking any self control when it comes to things like chocolate, ice cream, or biscuits. I could just as easily eat a large bar of chocolate as a small one, or a tub of ice cream compared to an individual wrapped lolly.


My portion control with savoury dishes is pretty good, apart from cheese straws, but that disappears out of the window when sweet things are around.

[Sunny Clouds]

This morning, I did my vague, wander round the kitchen and wondered what I actually wanted.  There was part of a 'protein' bar, i.e. a 'sugar and junk' bar with a token amount of protein.  I ate a bit.  It wasn't actually very satisfying and I was aware that I hadn't really expected it to be. So why had I eaten it?

Convenience.  The greed was as much for 'now, now, now' as for chocolate.

I thought of what else I buy that I'm 'gobble it now' with.  I've done the same with jars of peanut butter, jars of mayonnaise.  Yup, 'now' is the biggest driver.

Also, I'd bought some of those 'salads' that consist of a bit of tuna, some pasta, some lettuce and whatever else they fancy.  It used to be more sweetcorn and now it's cucumber and carrot.  I'd also bought a can of tuna and some lettuce.  I mixed it all up and willingly focussed primarily on munching the lettuce.

I've been finding I quite like lettuce but it doesn't say "eat me now".  But I didn't grow up eating lettuce.  I didn't even know what it tasted like until less than two years ago.  How do I embed the mental association between 'lettuce' and 'nice to snack on' in my brain?  It has to be possible.

This all has to be possible to deal with.

PS.  Does anyone know where one gets this 'self control' stuff?  I can't find it on ebay.  Do I have to make it myself?  (Yes, my humour gets pretty dire when I'm feeling guilty.)